Week 21

I was going to write "I've officially been pregnant longer than I haven't been pregnant"- then I realized that that would mean I have been pregnant for longer than 14 years- thats NOT right.  I guess I should more accurately say that since this blog has started, I've been pregnant longer than not pregnant.  This still sounds strange though- So lets just say....

21 weeks down 19 weeks to go!

 

This week I have been in a sort of a funk.  I don't know what it is, I just don't feel myself.  I know I can blame my moodiness on pregnancy, since so many pregnant women have the up and downs throughout their pregnancy, but I haven't really felt that way until now.  I've had a great pregnancy- no morning sickness, no food aversions, no out of this world cravings where I make Matt drive to the store at in the middle of the night. I had heartburn one night so far, where my arms went numb and just couldn't get relief (and let me just say '"Heartburn- STAY AWAY!" that was awful.)  I've had the occasional lower back pain- but I think that it was from over doing it, walking, or sitting in one postion with not much support for too long.  It's just been a really good pregnacy, no stretch marks, my belly button is still there, no signs of labor (I think that takes care of most of my usual survey) 

 

I could do this for 14 years.  Wait no!  That would mean I would have to have more than 14 babies.  No thanks!

 

What was I talking about?  Oh my funk, I can't describe it- just haven't felt myself. There were days that I thought I could really feel the "bubbles of baby", then nothing- maybe that is what 'caused' my funk: worry. 

 

Maybe it was looking around the house and seeing all of this stuff piled up with no real place to go, and that caused 'clutter in my brain'.  I am having dreams again like when I was working, I don't feel rested- I feel stressed!

 

 

Matthew 6:19-21 reads: "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal.  But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where theives do not break in and steal.  For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

 

Matthew 6: 24 goes on to say  "No one can serve two masters, Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money."

 

 

Not that I can say that I am serving money, but for about a year now, I've been over "the stuff" I have at home.  I have wanted to simplify my life.  I have wanted to take out the unneccasary, and haven't known where to start.  I think we have started the process by having the yard sale a few weeks ago- but there is so much more "treasure" sitting around my house that I just don't know what to do with.  I want to bring this child into a home that is Christ centered, a home that is filled with love and treasures of memories, not treasures of earthly goods, not stuff.

 

But how?  Sure I know how to make memories, I dream of the quality time we can spend as a family, raising our child to do good deeds for others, to be a loving person, to be a caring individual, a person who does things for the glory of God, not for the recognition here on earth.  But the earthly treasures part- when I do finally rid the house of the unneccesary, and it gets closer to baby time- how do I decide what is neccesary for this little one?